11th Jun, 2009

Random rambling... (includes pointless whining. Too bad, you friended me:P)

It seems that my LJ and my IJ are not turning into mirror images of each other, after all. (Mostly because I'm too lazy to cross-post -not actually cross-post but you know what I mean- my entries.)

OD'd on stress because of my hp_prisonerfest fic (on LJ) still but I managed to write very strong and disturbing end scene which was exremely relieving as I had no idea how to end the damn thing and good (or maybe bad...) endings are absolutely important. Of course it needs a lot of polishing but hey, I'm not in the first draft phase yet so I have to re-write the whole damn thing a few times anyway. Of course I am trying to write as well as I ever am able (hey, world really doesn't need more lousy fanfiction) but now this is somewhat different as my fic will be a gift for someone else, so it must be perfect ...or at least as near perfection as I am ever able to write). Ah, writing something really evil feels so absolutely good.

Also, I decided that today was a good day to spend something like half of my monthly budget on books and goth clothes. The rather huge (1446 pages) Finnish-English dictionary is a real blessing while writing and my new corset (pinstripe with some black pvc bondage stuff) is absolutely beautiful. *somewhat looking for a party to attend just to flaunt myself* Sadly, some bastard had bought all Battle Angel Alita mangas and the English version of 200 by Frank Miller from my favourite second-hand bookshop at the time when my budget was going straight (<- eww! het!) to the Eternal Void. Well, I'll buy those from somewhere else.

On good notes, I'm going with [info]luciusmistress and her parents (the only parents of my friends who happen to like me:D) to their shared summer cottage. On bad notes, there is no electricity. (Waargh, no Internet!)

Oh, and I just found an online version of "Might is Right" by Ragnar Redbeard (whoever he was). Yay! (I had the book but one of my irritating exes loaned it and later disappered off the face of the earth.)

13th May, 2009

At least I know what is important and what is not.

My budget is going straight (Het? EWWW! <- note to myself, at least try to avoid bad puns in the middle of a fukken sentence) to the Eternal Void, my apartment has changed its state from being "messy" to being "so chaotic I guess I could summon Azathoth here". I think that even I don't believe that I have a floor anymore. At least I am not able to see it.

Well, the only things I am worried about are my WIPs, my rather lousy grammar and my limited vocabulary. (The problems of a writer whose native language is not English. Argh, now I sound like I am trying to make pitiful excuses for worse parts in my fanfiction. I hate myself and I want to dieXD) Oh, and how to manage to keep my LJ account and my IJ account in balance, especially as they certainly end up being mirror images of each other anyway.

On the other news, my muse seems to be back again. I have IMO rather beautiful, somewhat poetic ficlet about young Tom Riddle in its first draft phase. And I even invented a new, great Dark Art curse ...in a very garbled Enochia. Go me.